PMS..mixture of feelings and si bakal pengantin ;)

kawan baik saya si sharmila nak kawen..

bukan men kawen kawen cam mase kecik2..

ni kawen btui btui..

yang ade tok kadi tu..

mase lepas mila bitau kami die nak kawen..

smpai skrang kami macam cakap..

"tak sangke..nak kawen da si mila tu..dulu ektip dok carik target cell je keje''

mila ade lah leukocyte..

dan lelaki kacak adelah..err..makanan nye..:P

ok..

mila adelah orang yang boleh dikategorikan sebagai organized la kan..haha..compared to me..i know she'll have her wedding under control..today's wednesday..means 2days to go..;)

i saw her countdown clock ticking..and i'm a bit nervous all of sudden..and seriously wanted to cry..
last time we hang out..was around january during my winter break..and honestly i admit..there's some changes and differences in how we used to be..but i cant figure out clearly..no..i'm afraid that i may know what and why but dont want to admit it..time and distance changed us i think..

as i write..my feelings are shaking..i feel like i want to cry..(ok..i'm already crying a bit..:'( )..i cant shake the fear of the distance between us..i fear the distance of soul and feelings..
what if its is there..the 'break-up'..

some says..best friends doesn't break up..best friends are forever..

but i've seen..i've experienced..the feelings and the thoughts..of an ex-bestfriend..

when i looked at my ex-bestfriend..i cant stop but wonder..

dear..which turn that we missed..which path that we stop walking together,we stop holding hands..did this breakup caught us off guard..or we've seen it coming.. did we just let it happen and didn't fight..have you ever had a silent wish like mine..hoping 'us' will come around eventually..

but that story doesnt have a happy ending..is it too cruel to admit that it was a flat ending..i mean..at the end..both of us just..suck it up and move on..tsk..it is cruel phrase..i know

and i really really really dont want that to happen tome and mila..i cant afford looking at our picture together and say..hey..this is me and the girl that used-to-be my bestfriend..
i freaking dont want that!!!! :(

i hope i can fix it..we can fix it..and hold each others hand till the end of the road..amin~

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hmmmmmm..

tujuan asal entry ini sebenarnye bukan untuk meluahkan perasaan..tapi sebenarnye nak share satu informasi yang i found it a bit funny but si mila cannot know that i found it funny until she already dinikahkan..uuu..i loike that word..hehe..ok..
i read bout how nervous she was and suddenly i felt nervous and nearly shed a tears..dah nak kawen da si mila neh..again..and the funny part was dicelah celah kekalutan beliau menguruskan last details on her wedding day..she found out that the tok kadi yang suppose to nikahkan die..is hospitalized!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..

oh mila..i am sorry..i really really hope that u already settle that..mse aku bce entry tu aku rase cam nak srazu kol kau tau..that makes me nervous..apekaahh ujian lagi 5 hari ini..tsk tsk..but bright side..at least 5hari before..not on that day..kan?kan?

and mila..i hope u already recover from ur demam..

and mila..i hope that jerawat goes away..

and mila..i really really hope everything goes well..heyy..i know evrything will go well..;)

u juz go and rock that baju pengantin ok sweetie??

and i hope bahrin wont puke on his baju melayu ten times like ur bro..hehe..ok..itu exaggerate~

and i know that u will look superly stunning..urgh..cepat la kawen..nak pictss! ;)

and i wish i wish i wish i could be there..tsk..

ini mila dan nelli ;)

err..derang tgh eksesais posing for majalah pengantin
edisi tanjung rambutan..

ni untuk majalah NONA..mila dan hubby..;)

selamat pengantin baru !!!!!!!

love all the way from ukraine..mmuuahhsss


dabdibdub: this is what u will get when my PMS aura coming.. half of heartpouring and a sudden flip into merepekking..hmpphh..mysayang used to say..during PMS..if i kill sumone..i will not be jailed..fiwwiitt..i lyke!