membebel (i)

*sigh*
i even have no idea wuts d title shud be..

2weeks more and sumthing stuck in my head till now..

let see..beyond the excitement of preparing...wut do i hate about wedding prep???

too many people with too many ideas..
seriously..im all confused!
i love wut i see..& i will take wut i love..the usual me..

i dun really go too detail on brand..i dont dream brand..i dream designs..if its cheap but pretty..so wut the hell rite..

but in wedding prep..its haaaaard to go cheap..i found it hard to take the design i like without strong brand and feeling proud of it..

i wasted cash going double of this and that just to find out every each is not right..

imagine seeking approval from 3 different people..different taste..different generation..!!

its hard..

i know everyone wanted to help out..wants my day to be great..the best it can be

but at one point..i just wanna go ignorant..just go go go..

abah pernah cakap..

'dalam kenduri kawin ni..kadang2 buat banyak dosa je..berlebih-lebihan..mengumpat-umpatan'

if u go perfect on sumthing..there will always..always..alwaaaays be sumthing yg not nice..people will always come out with some bad comment..

abah pernah pesan..

yang penting berkat..barakah..

itu yg memegang sebuah perkahwinan..

and i know he is right...

~~~~~

tapi takkan dapat lari dari debaran fikir wut will other people say if this or that..

hope this feeling will go away..

cuz sebenarnye disebalik kecerewetan ppl around me..means they care..a lot..to take the time and think wuts the best for me..
they help me out in so many ways..
so in the end of this journey..
i will always be grateful for them too~

tick tick ticker...

1 month..
1 week..
1 day..
...left..

whoa..ya Allah cuaknya..hope semua berjalan dgn baik..
going to kursus pra-perkahwinan this weekend..haha..lambat gile kan..ohh i hope the-serious-legally thing can be settled by next week!..

oooooooohhhh -_-;

anyway..
im nervous bout how my nikah dress is going to be..gosh..i had a preeety peekture of it in my mind..i hope it would turn out good :)

my Eday dress was made by aunty Peggy from Boutique Diana @ SungeiWang Plaza..
her tailoring details were alhamdulillah great..selesa pakai..
before this mama send a kebaya to her and masyaAllah..u can see the way she jahit..it was soo kemas..esp lining inside..

and thank God she made my kurung moden in 3days time onlyyyyy..:)



but i thing i would always remember..choosing flaring sleeves are big mistake..it keeps on running down my arm..and pictures nooot so pretty then..~~

oooh ps: apartment hunting cant waiiiitt~ *^_~*

xoxo Love :)

checklist worth checking in & check it out ;)

i found setelkahwin.com is worth trying for those bride-to-be..

well..a GOOD checklist makes a GOOD (and tame) bridezilla..;p

ade vendors list skali..i hope one day it will be better & better when they can get most of those ppl in this business to participate :>

haish..

reminding of checklists..i got tonssss of unchecked stuff..tsk~

bile leh check semuaaa :(

ps: i found that the ambiance of this room is soo...comforting & inviting!

maybe i'll get it one day

till then~

Ramadhan AlMubarak

Masya Allah..Ramadhan bakal menjelang lagi..
6 tahun lepas Ramadhan ku dihabiskan di Ukraine..
6 tahun jugak lah Eid ku sambut di bumi Ukraine..

Eid tahun kedua..it was more than just normal Eid..it was when I first saw him..
In such a small community,when I thought I've seen every faces,there he was @ 605 openhouse,and made my heart smile.. I always think that he's a gift from Him..
He's a reflection of me in soooooo many ways actually..

Harini puasa ganti..I've 2days to go! Imagine that lazzzyy..well..to be honest I'm not a fasting kinda person..:p well anyway..when I was counting 'ehh smpat keee nk puase ni..kang tibe2 red flag..naya!'

But I do love Ramadhan..terasa sgt rahmat & kasih sayang Allah melimpah ruah..
Rasa mcm semuanya dirahmati..
Rase mcm tenang yg lain macam..
Rase dekat je dgn Allah..
Rase hijab doa mcm nipisss sahaje..
Sblm ni rasa tebalnye..
sbb dosa2 yg byk.
astaghfirullahal aziimm..

Approx less 2weeks before puase..
Then bila masuk puase..
Masya Allah..time will fly fast..
And wedding is near..insyaAllah..
I hope everything goes well..
I hope I hope I can seek for His berkat & blessing..
Sebab itu yg bantu melayari baki kehidupan bersama..

Wow..bersama..kami..kita..us..we..together..I'm beginning to love these plural reference ;p ;p

Hehe..ok till then..hope bertemu dengan Ramadhan lagi :) amiiinn

my Eday..~

alhamdulillah berlangsung dgn baik..
cume few flaws..

things i cant let go till now is my make up..
that part sux to d max smpai rase nak nanges..
my final pict muke mcm tanned!!
sedeyyyyyyyyyyy..

it shows that i dont do well under pressure..
when things started to go wrong i panicked
padehal the basic i have already!
cume nak better kan je..
tapi rythm sume lari..
bile pikir rase sgt sedih..
jd psyched!!!!

dok rase nak belek2 gmbar org lain pnye engagement & wedding and dalam hati rase cam..
arrghhhhh..tensi tensi..

skrg baju xde yet for ANY event..
xde satu pun yg da tempah..
xde satu pun yg bergerak..

photographer takde lagi..
macam mane?

bile handle the matters sendri jd suxxx
bile bg org lain handle jd risau

boleh tak tanak buat ape2??
mahu semua org tolong buatkan saje..
sbb rase nak menangis sgt~ :(

haishh..
but despite that..
alhamdulillah sume lain2 ok
makanan cukup
guest dtg just nice

cume i wonder grand sgt kot??
haha..serious..aritu pikir bese je
but pikir balik..
aiseehhh..mmg grand lahh~

abah cannot avoid inviting neighbours..hence the big crowd
mama cannot let guests sit on floor merate2 in d house..hence the 3kemahsss
me cannot not to invite my beloved ppl
faiz cannot not to have his kambing golek since its his doa selamat ceremony too

btw..
im enjoying the view of 'the ring' on my finger..
the one yg my future mother in law risau about..
but im loving everybit of it..despite of everything :) :)

and..i love mr.fiance keep on referring me as fiancee..haha ;p

another month to go..and fiancee no more! *^_^*

Approximately 1month 3weeks to go..
Smalam borak2 ngan maklang bout this..rse mcm funny pun ade..tak percaye pun ade..
After so long knowing him as a boyfie..
Dulu nk sbut nama dia dpan mama & abah leh merah la satu muke segan..
Dulu nk ckp pekataan kawen depan abah mcm nk tesekat kat kerongkong..cume referring event tu as 'event tu' je..haha
Wpun dulu awal2 lg wanting this to happen..dalam hati someday someday insya Allah..tp rase jauh lagi..
Skarang ni..bedebar..hope Allah permudahkan
Amino

...

~
give me rain
give me shine
i'll always love u
until the end of time
~

counting days..

yaAllah i am sooo cuak right now..
semoga weekend ni berjalan dgn lancar..
sarah&mael is getting marriedn 0n 24th..hah..derang lagi cuak kan..;p
but aaaaa..i am so cuak..
aritu mcm seems easy je nak jd wonder woman sume buat sendri..skali bile cube buat..hamek..tak reti dowwwww!! i really thought i can do this..*sigh*
well..i manage to make a ribbon..but it looks like as if it has been stepped on -___-;

anyway..
mama is sad..
i can feel it..

mama wants me to settle down here..but since he already in Ipoh..means i have to go there & follow him..
when she knows that i already set my mind..accepting the fact that i'll live there most prob forever..she's kinda 'terasa'..

she said that her friend can help for my penempatan here..and she can also transfer him..but he said he cant since he have to take of his parents..and me defending him..saying its his duty..mama kinda terasa summore~

i dun know..
mcm2 feeling inside..
only God knows how nervous i am to face this challenge..~

i faham perasaan mama..
bile teringat apa mama rase..me myself terasa nak nanges..
lately asek bergenang airmata..
gosh~
Ipoh-KL 3 hours je..and ade highway summore..
things will be alright kan??
i hope~

selamat tinggal Simferopol~

aku akan pulang ke Malaysia TODAAAAYYYY!!!!!

finally..

hmm..pasti akan rindu segala2nye di sini..

..internet yg laju

..makanan yg best

..tempat lepak yg semakin cool

..lepak bilik zen smpai 2-3 pagi lepas tu lari balik bilik sambil zen teman thru telefon since die pun penakut utk send me pulang alone~

..rindu katil kegemaran walaupun bukan Kingcoil..tapi bejaya wat ku tido smpai tengahari la jugak

..rindu comforter kuning yang menggantikan yg dirindui

..rindu makanan last resort kat AC yg ntah2 tak tahu budak2 malaysian panggil kedai makan die AC instead of Princessa

btw pizza Roma is da bomba~

pasti akan rindu segala2nya..tempat jatuh bangun dalam pelajaran..dalam cinta..dalam persahabatan...

aku jatuh cinta disini..

dengan doa dan harapan ianya adalah untuk sampai ke tua..

aku sayang kawan2 disini..

dengan harapan kenangan akan terus dicipta sampai ke tua..

aku selalu wonder mungkin kah akan aku lupe sedikit demi sedikit tentang tempat ni..

aku harap ada peluang untuk kembali menghirup udaranya..

aku pasti rindu..

pasti rindu..

pasti rindu semuanya..~

sedih........

flight to istanbul : 1325

love~

hmmm~

free your heart..................

ease your mind................

then only you can feel...

the L.O.V.E...............

erase your suspicion..

lose you doubt..

i can feel it..

& it hurts..

some past does haunt u..

it might haunt u for the rest of ur life..

it might haunt u down to ur grave..

so as a reminder..

do watch ur step..

do think the consequences of ur act..

do consider heavily the path u will take..

i know

cuz i didnt watch my step..

didnt think the consequences of my act..

and chose my path lightly..

and it haunt me..

like a dark and heavy cloud..

it doesnt just torture me physically..

it felt heavy inside..

its hard to breath sometime..

cuz the reminder of it brings so much pain..

deep inside me..

your act indescribably cause this pain..

ur ego

ur ignorance

ur words

and i just wanna lie here..

and shut the world that reminds me of that pain..

i hope tomorrow will be better

clueless!

haritu macam berkobar2 semangat jiwa nak shop for my barang dulang here..
sebab sumeorg mcm ''ooohh going there to buy brg hantaran yeee??''
i know its BIG SALE here now..
*teeehheee..i just shop selfishly yesterday*

but i found it kinda hard to search anything for him..

perfume??
definitely need partial opinion since i'll get mental disorientation if trying to snifffff d whole shop..plus i fancy having 'em in gift pack..one perfume with tiny-miny stuff around it..
so endup deciding istanbul or malaysia~

shirt?ties?
a big Q mark on my forehead if i ever step into that department alone..~

kasut?
im not a big fan of putting kasut on dulang..so out that part..~

my stuff..
perfume?
i got my eyes on one set of VSecret that comes with a cute round box..quite a bummer since i think that particular type is kinda outdated

handbag?
humm..again..not a big fan having handbags on dulang..but i need variation!

that's mainly the stuff i planned to grab here..but endup not liking~
maybe cuz i went alone..
i dun wanna grab daddy along..kesian him
and some more in my mind i keep on thinking..ala bli kat malaysia je..senang bawak~
plus some more its megasale too rite?

sooooooo...empty handed boleh tak???~

oh btw..
here still iphone 4 fever..
hardly to get them on stock! mostly preordered !
and since most of em are locked by the carrier..means their customer first if its there on-stock..
for me to buy it? i'll only get to stand at the end of the line..no preorder..noncustomer..not staying in UK.. -_-'

but i get to hold it and play the displayed one..:D
great stuff..
but no suprise tho..haha
i mean..its everything u thought an iphone would be..
of coz with enhanced spect..but generally it it still the same iphone..:P
well..knowing that i'll never get a grab of that here plus im not an iphone crazy fan type so if its not for me in UK..then..wutever..~
*definitly not going to search high and low for one*

so i'll just wait it in malaysia if i want one..
or just stick on with my BB plan..
hehe~
BB seems a bit cool and layed back..

well..its kinda irritating sometime how iphone fan can be so overly obsessed with it..i mean yeah yeah we get it..its cool,excellent design,great software la la la..but then just buy it normally like normal people do will ya?? ;p

ouh..2weeks more utk kembali ke pangkuan ibunda..
tak sabar!

till then..
TCL..xoxo

hari ini dalam sejarah

my baby polar silver was born
my baby polar silver
cant wait to meet you
cant wait to hold you

*terawangtermimpi*

harap semua nya lancar..aminn~

OhMy3Weeks..

alhamdulillah graduation dah berlalu dengan baik..
alhamdulillah i got to have it with people i love sooooo much...
eventho terpakse juggle btwn family & friends..
but im grateful..
terase happy..
w'pun takde gmbar yg banyak2 with mcm2 posing..
i know deep in my heart..i will always remember it.. :)
insya Allah..

currently im in London..
summer in London oh God oh God..
i wissssshh i have duit sejuta pound!
sale here and there..rase terharu..
nape laaa malaysia takde sale sehebat UK..hoho..

oh btw..
i met a pakcik on my way here..sits besided daddy in flight..i thought he's kinda weird at first..sangat observant! nasib baik mulut tak laser gi ckp kat daddy why la uncle tu pelik..cuz he faham BM..darn..when i knw that fact..tibe2 cam dlm ati bedebar..naseb baek naseb baek mulut tak laju..haha

all that while he rupenye try to listen & understand our conversation..
well..i dont think in a way nak eavesdropping gossip..but i think he tried to figure out my words..
masa dok pikir mane nak cocok earphone in sit..tibe2 terkeluar perkataan..BAGUS!..i was like..what???? malaysian kaaahh??

skali kuar la citer yg die ade worker melayu..n he pernah dtg malaysia 20 years back..and suprisingly he said still ingat few words..few i mean A LOT~
and start la cerita2 pasal malaysia,nasi lemak and putu mayam...

haha..congrtaz uncle! u pernah makan putu mayam..i tak pernah~ gile looser yeah i know..

and he start tanye2 a i blaja mane..ukriane bla bla bla..

skali die cakap ya panimayu pa ruski daaa..
luruh jantung..sesungguhnye pakcik ini takleh diumpat..haha ;p ;p
well..sbb i tau 3 option bahase itu saja..
kalau mama ade..leh i upgrade English+F..
afai dofont knofow hefe ufundeferstafand ofor nofot

cuz if he can understand that too..i will cry..definitely!!!!

hehe..
well this entry without pict cuz im using public PC..

i lovvvveeee my hotel..debenham+primark at the back..plus other shops with further reduction..gosh..i wishhh zen+clan are here..
and depan got Subway halal..tsk...camne nak depart niiii..

hehehe..

till then..
take care, xoxo

ps: yikessssss.few moths to go..:D :D :D

its my fav time of the year :)

“The greatest gift is the passion for reading.
It is cheap, it consoles, it distracts, it excites,
it gives you knowledge of the world and experience of a wide kind.
It is a moral illumination.”
— Elizabeth Hardwick



the moment i've been waiting for has finally come..:) :)

i think the only,purely free time i have in whole year is summer holz..

now that i'm officially not a student nor employed..i can spend my time reading all my pending novels..weeee..the best way to spend my free time..

currently im indulging this writer..Dorothy Koomson..i fell in love with her writing from 'My BestFriend's Girl'..its a great story..and now im reading 'Goodnight Beautiful'..funny so far i read..two pattern..colored ppl and bestfriend-boyfriend betrayal..hmm..~

anyway..she cant beat my fav Jodi Picoult and J.K.R.. yet..

i wont write about the synopsis as it will ruin the suprise..BUT..the unfortunate me has read the synopsis by accident just now when i searched for this pict! grrrr..how i regret that..(>,<)

i know this post is rather boriiiinngg..haha..i can feel the flatness in writing..but just wanna share..

i think it is true..the passion to read is a great gift..
well..tiny bits of me wish that i have that kind of passion when reading medical book too ;p

but it is a great gift indeed! it cant be force..it might be trained..but if u are not one of those with this passion..u will say..WTcrap on earth am i writing about..haha..;p

ps: picnic time is postponed again..tsk..but im grateful that today is raining..!! the hot weather is killing me..!

thankyou Allah for the Love :) :)

till then..
take care Love..xoxo

every journey has its end..

every journey has its end..
and the end of a journey is a beginning of a new one..

i packed some of my stuff yesterday..sorting out which will go where..and i found it preeeetttyy hard to choose which book is going to stay here..i heart them all~ tsk..
i always sux at spring cleaning..haha..cuz i keep on clinging on stuff that are useless but have someother value! so i end up arranging craps in box..;p

funny thing..when now i have all the time in the world to go & surf for W stuff i find it hard to do it..mood tak sampai..tapi hari tu masa exam..skejap je tibe2 ting tong ting tong teringat nak carik itu ini..hmphh!

well..i hope i can be more serious..cant wait to be back & be in full speed! harap2 tak terbabas ;p

till then..
take care Love..xoxo

Lah Ahmad - Adinda (HD)

jatuh hati <3 tsk!!

andai mama ku tahu...

andai mama tahu..
that i spend 3+hours doing non-study-related stuff..
and exhausted by it..
pasti die geleng kepala..

andai student medic lain tahu..
that i spend 3+hours doing non-medical-related stuff..
and got a neck & spine stiffness from it..
pasti kene rejam dengan buku Davidson..

haha..rose pun gelakkan okey..she finds it pretty amusing that i can be that focused and serious..
(cube kalau belajar..10mins bontot berasap sudah)
well..description atas macam la i did sumthing gempak..(which is not!)
sumthing simple je from others eyes..
but hell it did give me a neck stiffness!!

takpe..the ikhlasness..the semangatness tu yang penting..
i did it happily..
it gives me a good distraction from sumthing..
and it brings back the good old memories..

zaman sekolah2 dulu..bila ada event yg melibatkan pertandingan antara homeroom..
u wont find me on my bed for days..cewah..ok taklah wont..but hardly lah..
nak jumpe sahabat baik yg lain homeroom pun susah..tibe2 jadi all secretive and private..haha..smangat tak semangat...mostly sebab busy laah..

i love doing all those cat2 banner thing..or cut-paste-getting-all-sticky thing..or busy making bushy bushy pom-poms..or u'll find me working on some poem or script..teringat hari merdeka where me and ihah duduk on her bed and buat sajak..sampai tertido2..

and hari sukan where me and syera made those mascot heads for ar-razi march..
and menyibuk2 buat banner kat bilik seni cikgu Zuhir sedangkan tak berbakat utk buat..i always sux at paintings ;p

i miss school..
i miss boarding school life..

zaman berkawan-kawan..
zaman bergumbira dengan tanggungjawab yg sekecik keropok twisties 30sen..
zaman baring atas katil member and golek bersama..
zaman bersidai kat koridor usha sape hensem sape hawtie of the day..
sampai cikgu BM marah & kata..BERSIDAI JE KEJE TAPI TAK KERING2..
mane boleh kering la cegu dengan juicy2 gossip..

sumtimes i feel like..pause please..i'm growing too fast..tsk~

reality check..
now its 5:06 am..kat luar pun da terang benderang since its summer..
and i need some sleep..
distraction mission succeed..
i'm all good :)

till then..
take care Love..xoxo

yeaaaayyyy!!

now i'm back sonnet..!!
it has been a long time since i left u~

dont be sad sonnet..i'm back with buah tangan ape..new background for u ;) happy??
haha..lame hokeh nak choose background saja..mood ibarat lautan begelora..nafsu pun tamak haloba..kalau boleh nak install SEMUA yang ada sebab easy sgt nak install template from
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sebab nak exam ni..nnti2 la ye i upgrade banner for u..

and this entry khas for miss dina ..my blogger friend..cewah..;p bila ajaa mahu ketemuk this Legendary Friend of zazai..janji dtg my Wday kan kan..haha ;) hugs!

till then..
take care Love..xoxo

paused!

haha..sorry to say this mysonnet18..
i fall in love with another..
i hope u understand why sumtimes u're being abandoned..
twittwe & tumblr both in my life now..
maybe one day i'll fall in love with u again..
but for now..good bye my love good bye..



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