hutan lipstiks

oohh when i watch Lipstick Jungle..i miss kakRazz..i do..i do..~

she has this special kinda silence attitude that i love..

i do enjoy silence once in a while..but dun fancy having it alone..

and with raz..its peaceful..rarely talk nonsense and crap..

take my time just lie beside her and let blank

well..if im in nonsense gila mode..of course i'll turn to channel Zen+Qis..myGod..and i'll miss these perempuan gila-gila nanti after grad~ ;) ;)

Lipstick Jungle OST is coooool..it has this sexy melody that makes me wanna move..hahaha..cewah..as if i have any moves..

but it kinda irritates me when the girl made some kinda weird sound..u knw wut i mean..hmmphh~

okeyyy..come and switch ur mood!!!

download kat my link meh

botanical garden, yalta and princess affairs..

it was a FUN FUN FUN day..althought its hot! but alhamdulillah at least its not raining kan ;)

day starts at 7.30am..BERSIAP!

from vakzal 10.00 am

today me,rose,qis,zen,gie,mun,shikin,sarah,dila,diana,mimi went to YALTA..weeee..terkabul jugak hasrat nak amek gambar kat castle tepi bukit..the scene masya Allah..was spectacular..we can see the Black Sea from the cliff..scary kot bile dok tepi balcony castle and tengok ke bawah..isk~ bayangkan laaaaa kalau jatuh..

we took a bus,2hours ride to Avtovakzal Yalta and took a yellow masyrut, first to Botanical Garden and then to the castle..haishh..the pakcik that took us here and there macam baik in the beginning..but at the end jadi cam kerek gile plak sebab kitorang yang kedekut ni tanak bagi die duit banyak2..langsung masing2 tutup pintu kuat2 and refuse untuk amek bisnes kad die..haha *jahat* tapi...die baik gak laa senanye sikit sikit..

Botanical Garden was nice..as the name speaks for it self,its a garden yang penuh spesis2 tumbuh-tumbuhan dan bunga-bungaan..;) and i never found someone who's excited with flowers like Rose did! macam kanak2 kat Disneyland..*i exaggerate* if kami tak control die..maybe Rose akan lost between the bushes..

and the castle on the cliff was great toO..sebab kitorg dapat pakai costume yang kembang dan beropol-ropol ;) Mase kecik2 xcukup duit nak merase baju kembang camtu..haha..

oh berbalik pade pakcik kerek..well..thankGod he offered to drive us up (but with extra charges la kan) since walking distance from entrance to castle was beyond imagination kot kejauhannye!!

and kami berjalan whole day dengan perut yang menjamah last meal pukul 10am..and sampai pukul 7.00pm baru dapat makan again..! mmg towards the end sume muke kebulur n dehydrated ;p 

from Yalta to Simferopol 5.05 pm

arrived at vakzal 7.00pm

eat at AC

and so the day ends....now~ nyte ;)

ps: bile tengok gambar kami yang pose macam kanak kanak hyper..rase macam tak percaya..ini next year doctors..and sume dah hampir umur suku abad!! *Gosh girls..grow up plz*

how long does it takes to figure out this??

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i was going thru my CDs last friday to sort out which stuff in past that will stay past and which will i carry together to face the days ahead..i think it is funny when all this while i keep wondering why a person is capable of loving sumthing and then the love is not there anymore-completely..not even the name can trigger a slightest jolt in heart..i mean..is that even possible????

well it is possible..! lol

i've been thru a relationship that made me sad thinking how silly i am staying sad!

and i've been thru a relationship that made me laugh thinking how silly i am being who i am at that time..;p

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so..

how long does it takes to know your partner

to figure out that..okey..i can live with this person for next 100 years..

it always came across my mind how some people have a relationship for 10 years and suddenly they flip their heart and change their interest..all of sudden mata sepet is not pretty..and bimbo-blue eyes belongs to an angel..all of sudden ikan patin masak tempoyak is smelly and Tony Roma is delicious since forever..

but 'feelings' is like a vapour out in atmosphere..no one can exactly tells where it should go or what shape it should be..of coz feelings is like an art..it bends and form without a specific rules..

after a few arguments i started to doubt..started to cry before i sleep thinking that how can i face my 100 years ahead feeling hurt and sad like this..

sometime there's a tiny voice inside saying..it's enough..but i'm not brave enough to push myself off the cliff..i started questioning myself what if i made silly decision that i will regret later..what if at the end i didnt meet a person that treat me as good as u did..it has been 4 years learning about each other...and yet so many things we can argue about..

and the question repeat itself again and again..

can i live with this person for 100 years..?

as i lay in my bed thinking bout it..

finally it came to me that..

i dont know whether we can tolerate 100 years together

but for sure..i cant have a tomorrow without you..

*ps: i love you

MY MILKY TOOF

currently sangat takde mood..

jabbawokeez in ANTM lifted my mood a bit this morning but that doesn't help much..

heh..blog ini sangat comel : my milky toof

can i ever be this creative

.dot.

the 6th Eid far from home
but I thank Allah swt for the 6th chance
to celebrate it with my beloved friends here

6Eids i will miss
i know for sure

thanx esp:

.zen.qis.gie.rose.shikin.sarah.mun.
.wawa.raz.we miss.
&
.adilahalim.
.diyana.mastura.mimi.
.aina.she.hanisah.ecah.
.hani.nuki.nana&alok.
.myusrah:sakeenah.fana.kakmashi.achot.
.myclass:sally,kartik,rayman,sanjay,aimul.
and
other fellowfriends@CSMU
for great 6years here

pre-bye bye

malas nak balik..

nak cuti lagi..
tsk~
i will miss everything here..

kejap rasa..cepat lah grad

but i fear the challenge ahead..
cuak gak bile pikir da final year..
and i dont think i'm prepared enuff
to face the real world
the real job
THE JOB..
-end-

Ramadhan,Rembau dan Mat Top

i spend my first day of Ramadhan @ Rembau..the place i want to be the most when it comes to Ramadhan and Eid celebration ;)

atuk sangat excited pagi2 maka tiba-tiba beliau dapat ilham pergi carik buluh sebab nak masak lemang..hihi..atuk semangat bila anak cucu nak pulang..*comel* sampai mak long yang 50-50 nak balik sabtu ke ahad terpakse decide sabtu lepas mak su cakap..kalau balik ahad..means dapat tengok bekas buluh yang bakar semalam dan bara yang dah jadi abu saja la ye~

semua ada..macam raya!!

tapi this weekends i also learn more about adult world..the world that i saw perfect from my premature eyes before..

marriage and betrayal..
i askd my aunty..
"kenape walaupun orang tu kawin suka-sama-suka..ade jugak yang lepas tu betray and jatuh cinta dengan orang lain???"
"kenape bile bercinta dengan orang lain..isteri & anak-anak tak lagi jadi penenang hati?"

it's fated she said..
itu ujian yang kena terima dan tempuh dengan tenang..

really? it's sad..
looking at the eyes of the one whom have been betrayed..
the eyes of their child..unable to understand..

i have tasted the bitterness of betrayal..and it is bitter..
its dark and painful..and torturing..
ripping the heart again and again..endlessly..
i have never cried so long..so hard..

but later how i learned that the bitterness i tasted..
it's nothing compared to the real world...

-end-

makteh kata ini adalah jebak..used to catch birds by putting
a bird inside it..and birdie will sing..inviting other birds to come near by
dan lalu mereke semua 'terjebak' ~
kisah benar ok!this birdie is Mat Top ;)

kitties kat umah pakcik Hakim in cage sbb takmau
kasi kacau umah uwan time masak2ini anak Mochel yg baru ;)

Save Now

hanif-uwan-atuk-faiz-bayang

ps:i looked at the sky and i found the star i missed..once in my heart it shine and burns for me..the warmth and happiness once felt..comes again..star is still the same..time haven't changed anything..like watching a good old movie..watch it thousand times..the amusement remains..;)

hello stranger!

setiap kali lalu jalan tu..
mereke selalu ade..sapu sapu daun2 yang bersepah2 kat tepi2 jalan..
dan selalunye..setiap kali aku lalu..
mereke pasti pandang..dari jauh lagi dah memandang..
dan setiap kali itu jugak aku pandang straight kedepan..
aku tahu pandangan itu berekor bila aku sudah melepasi mereka..

ape agaknya dalam minda mereka??
adekah aku sombong? berlagak? kerek?

tidaaaaakkkk!!
sebenarnye aku segan..malu..nak wat expresi muke ape kalau bertentang mata.. ??
sebenarnye aku bersyukur aku tak perlu kerje bawah terik panas...menyapu daun2 kering tu..berjalan berkilometer2..untuk menyara diri..menyara keluarga..
aku solute orang yang berkerja bawah terik matahari..seolah olah cabaran yang super hebat..
jadi aku segan dengan mereke tu bile die penat2 sapu..penat2 jalan kaki..panas2..
aku plak..naik kete laju je..sejuk berhawa dingin (cewah)..pehtu balik bukak fridge minum oren sejuk..sombong gila! terjerit2 aku dalam hati..

jadi satu hari aku decide..
aku nak hadiahkan sesuatu yang berharga!
iaitu??
senyuman..hehe..bes??

senyuman tu best sebenarnye..Raihan pun nyanyi..senyum adalah sedekah paling mudah..

walaupun senyum tu sedekah yang takyah kuar duit mahupun harta..tapi ingat senang ke??

senyum pada stanger ade lah susah apebile stranger itu kite jumpe hari2..
sebab ape??????
sebab bile tetibe senyum..first respon muke makcik tu is..watdehek ko senyum??
cet..
cubaan kedua aku tarik lilBro untuk senyum bersame2..(and he even ask..hah??kenape plak?)
tapi makcik tu tengah minum air..sambil tengok kitorg tersenyum cam pertandingan Miss Universe..so i cant really see her responds..
cet..

and cubaan seterusnye..sedekah ku dikembalikan..;) dan sekarang bila terserempak..i even can wave..hehe..!

aku percaya..dengan senyuman tu..aku dapat tunjukkan rasa hormat dan penghargaan atas jasa mereke menjaga kawasan perumahan ni..

try to smile to a stranger..u never know how it can change the way that day turns out to be ;)

ps: jangan senyum merate2 ok..nanti ade orang kejar dari belakang-ikut sampai carpark-sile la dijauhi..scary-tsk~

they fight, they breakup..they kiss,they makeup..

kasih..

i tried to search meaning of kasih..cuz i want to define and differ kasih, sayang, cinta..
but i'm too lazy to search gila'ly..not even try to click the NEXT button in search result page..

oh wutever...

fights..i hate fights..cuz in fights it's hard to keep the topic in one range only..one topic always leads to another..and leads to another..and another topic will always leads to 'the PAST mistakes' and the miserablity became double! that's the get 1 free 1 i hate the most..

we've discussed bout this before u know..
we really sux big time in art of fighting..sampai nak fight kene buat rules of fighting!
macam...
-always focus on current issue

-no bad words..no bad mouthing each other

-stay calm & not making silly faces (which is hard for me..:P)

-absolutely no raising voices

-delete any intention of hurting the other one

-if one of u gets d previleges in fighting like..being sulky,not talking or only using short sentences,not calling nor txting,not smiling..then the other one automatically,compulsorily have to react the opposite of every aspect mentioned before..

-do not use their past mistake to defend ur ground..cuz that will lead to other issue..remember!!! current issues only

-discuss matters when both of u already calm down..

-do not use threat..especially on wanting to break up..some day it may bcome so freaking lame and unscary duhhh~

-use the idea of lost-lost..so there's no need to defend ourselves nor trying to knock the other one down..kaann ;)

-if possible..avoid fighting using IM,,SMS etc..the best way is face to face..second best is thru the phone..less misunderstanding i tell you kan..sbb we might misread the tone of the phrase..

-if u have to IM or SMS..try this : add cute,warm,funny,friendly,goofy etc. words at the end of phrase..mcm..

instead.."kan da cakap,tanak dengar"
try to say.."tuu laaa yang..kan da cakap, tanak dengar''..
or..''nyehnyehnyeh..da cakap tanak dengar ooooo"..
or..''kan da ckp,tanak dengar ;p''

-try not to change or delete the 'mesra' names like honeybee,baby,buchuk,anje just because ur pissed of

-try not to skip the usual wishes like.."love u".."gudnite n switdrim'' cuz it will hurt the other one

..lagi..

..dah..cannot think of any more..next time maybe?? ;) ;)

will you, mr.Boyfee, with cherry on top..marry me??

yeay..

second part of the summer date started..

i dont wanna complaint..cuz i believe that i understand his work demand..;)

so today was..

midV+the Garden stroll
GSC Signature : The Proposal !! (thanx to adilla for the tip)

Kenny lunch

and i hate realizing how time fly so fast when it comes to spending precious time with him..damn fast..grrrr..

i simply love The Proposal sampai tengok 2 kali..haha..i mentioned bout it before but mysayang cakap..alaaaa..tu citer pompuan!..haha..love comedy's sweet okk..

so i pre-watch it with zen+ qis..and manage to convience mysayang that it is worth watching! ;)

isnt me wanting for a second round covincing enuff??

hehe..seriously..go and watch it..and watch it @ Signature GSC for an extra cuddle space..haha..haaiippp..kidding~ :P

PS to Ryan Reynolds: if u are reading this..i just wanna say..I LOVE YOUr cute face!!!!

nil

gagagagagaggaagaa..

kenape bila kat rumah akan hanya update blog dalam kepala saje??

si kecik dah berumur 19 tahun..

saya dan syifa' pula..

err..

lets just say..

lebih kurang baya-baya syahirah je la ye..;p

Alpha came into my life..

dun ask me why he's in my life..

cuz i myself dont know meehh~

mak..i'm 24 now..am i allowed to berchenta???

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
my heart cair again and again..

i had this song like few years back..around 05-06..
and the first time i heard this..
i was like..
dannggg..this will be my lullaby :p :p :p

i dont think dygta is as famous as Ungu or Kerispatih..i'm not really sure whether they still exist or not now..but this song..still steal my heart every time i listen to it..

i didnt put it in my mp3..
cuz..i think..
if i listen to it too often..
the sparks will die..
and i hate that..
cuz i love this..
and by listening to it..
once in a blue moon..
really lift up my mood..:D :D


hmph..sayang..i miss u..!!

Dygta – Karena Ku Sayang Kamu (KKSK)

Karena Ku Sayang Kamu (KKSK) - Dygta
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net
seandainya kau ada disini denganku
mungkin ’ku tak sendiri
bayanganmu yg selalu menemaniku
hiasi malam sepiku
kuingin bersama dirimu

reff: kutak akan pernah berpaling darimu
walau kini kau jauh dariku
‘kan slalu kunanti
karena kusayang kamu

hati ini selalu memanggil namamu
dengarlah melatiku
kuberjanji hanyalah untukmu cintaku
takkan pernah ada yg lain

adakah rindu di hatimu
seperti rindu yg kurasa
sanggupkah kuterus terlena
tanpamu di sisiku
kukan selalu menantimu

ps:duhhhh...nape malas nak bace and correct before post?? sebab ini dah kali keberape edit..nadiya..at least set one foot on ground plis! *rolling eyes*

i got latest Dell Studio 19 desktop for FREE!!!

...
yeah..dream on missy!

haha..ok..i am sooo not in da mood to study..so i spent my evening windowshopping from one e-shop to another e-shop..wishing that i can have this and that and this and all~

while i was strolling at e-bay..ohh scrolling my mouse i mean..i bumped into one thing that caught my eyes..tied my heart..wishing i could reach it..and touch it..and bring it home..and sit infront of it adoring..and bragging bout it..ok stop being jakun kampung pisang..

i used to dream on iMac..grrr..the first time i saw iMac..i was thinking..agak2nye..kalau gune taktik mase kecik2 dulu..guling2 on the floor..screaming and crying and peluk kaki abah sebab nak iMac tu..agak2nye die belikan x???

i dont know exactly why i like it..i mean..people said mac susah nak match prog la etc..byk cons from pro..tapi..tapi..tapi..cool sangat kalau ade iMac..kalau tgk citer kat tv..bilik cantik2 ade iMac..cam lagi berseri bilik tu..:p

but then i saw this..
Dell Studio 19 Desktop yang sangat affordable..adorable..cool-able..and brag-able..
buruk perangai nak brag je keje..:P

ok..DS19D ni..cewah..skati je shortkan~ is a desktop with a motto..'Begs to be Touched'..gatai sket la DS19D neh..so that motto explain much bout wut's so speacial about her..;p

beside that..it was nearly as cool as iMac because it comes without bulky-big-cpu-box..i think it's called System Unit..i think la kan..;p

and the other good thing bout DS19D is..it is affordable..;) did i mentioned that before?

ok..andai la kan..a computer geek..opss..computer pro..lost his way here and read this unprofessional review of DS19D..plis dont start banging me.. i know too few bout computers besides whc's cool wch's not..~

honestly..i only know bout the RAMsize..the memory size and the latest Intel installed inside..dont ask me to compare other values..hehehe~

ok..plis plis plis click the link to DS19D and see the vids and pictures..i hope u like it as much i do..

and here too cuz there's the price..

oh..if u think u wanna give it to me as a pressie for my next bday..small my palm..nyiru i collect kan~ :D :D :D

Dell people..can u give me one for free plis eventho my review sux?? *puppyeyes*puppyeyes*

...............~

saat ini yang terbayang kata2 aku dalam doa setiap kali lepas solat..

''ya Allah ya Tuhan ku..hanya pada Mu ku pohon ampun..dan hanya pada Mu ko pohon pertolongan"

..dan saat ini kata2 dalam doaku itu dicabar oleh yang Esa..sejauh mana hanya padaNya ku pohon pertolongan..

aku cube memanipulasi dan memusing definisi tujuan satu perbuatan supaya hati tidak rasa bersalah..

tapi saat ini sangat gagal..rapuhnya hati..terasa ingin menangis..sebak..

saat berdepan dengan kuasa manusia..hati gentar..kalau tumpas, adakah cukup kekuatan menghadapinya?

dapatkah aku kota kata2 ku..yang ku ungakap setiap hari padaMu..

ya Allah...berilah petunjuk dan kekuatan..jika ia tidak mendatangkan murka Mu..tenangkan lah hati ku ketika hendak memilihnya..Amin~

*peringatan*

jangan takabbur
jangan bongkak
kita tak selalu berada di atas..

jangan cakap besar..
nanti baru tahu langit tinggi rendah..

sayangi apa yang kita ada..
hargai apa yang kita ada..

bukan kah ade yang berkata..

''kadangkala kita hanya hargai sesuatu bila ia sudah tiada''

jangan ambil enteng sesetengah perkara
jangan pentingkan diri sendiri
jangan berkata buruk
takut tercermin sifat sendiri

jangan sangka langit selalu cerah
jangan sangka nasib selalu baik
jangan sangka satu penantian ialah selamanya
kerana setiap manusia ada batas sabarnya

jangan bermain dengan api
nanti terbakar diri sendiri

jangan tikam dari belakang
kerana bila jatuh tiada siapa yang akan sokong

tiada apa yang kekal di dunia ini

cintakan bunga..bunga akan layu..
cintakan manusia..manusia akan pergi..

satu..hargailah..hargailah..hargailah..

la la la la..

hmm..macam ni rupenye..

eh ape amek gambar time study ni?? kacau je..

ape2 lah..sambung sambung..

alhamdulillah..

satu paper therapy dah bye-bye..

..ade lagi 4!!

and i'm exhausted already..bangun pagi badan sengal2..macam pergi bersukan je semalam..~

and dalam exam fever neh..i manage to selit-selit time untuk tengok meteor garden dan jatuh chenta dengan DaoMing Si sekali lagi setelah sekian lama bermimpi-mimpikan kalau laaaa DaoMing Si tu wujud = kaye-hensem-tough-sweet-kaya-hensem-tough-sweet woohoo dan daku ialah ShanChai.. ..best..thanx mysoju.com for distracting me!! ;p

haha..sorry mysayang :P

ok2..next paper is surgery..tengok kertas macam sket..tapi sume orang kate susah GILE..and i'm about to find out after posting these picturess..

ini depan main building

ok..quality cam hampeh sebab gune camera 3G ..

ini kami.tengah tunggu buku zachut depan main building..sambil dihidangkan dengan tangisan qisqos..die baru lepas buat plastic surgery..dan die sedih sebab hasil muke tak seperti Paris Hilton yang diharap-harapkan..~ lagi mengeluarkan air mata bile zainul kata..macam muke pontianak sundal bolong wtxghdgexsj!

zainul & qis..i hope we will remember this...how qis cried sambil cakap2 ''sume orang hasil cantik..aku sorang je buruk! wuuuu..macam pontianak! '' ohh..dan die juge sedih sebab die rase muke die da jadi melayu..dulu macam korea2 sket she claim..oh.................sabar2..at least aku cakap muke jadi macam nia ramadhani..and maya kering..:P

.............ok

hush and dont be sad..u are still cute i can bet~


dan ini baby baru me & qis..we shared..apetah ade dalam pale otak ni..time2 dkat nak xam pergi beli kucing baru! but this lil guy cute gile..nanti tak beli mengigau2 mimpi die..
his name is Ronnie..and sekarang suke kencing merata..-_-; *sigh*
kesian wawa kerna bersihkan sbb he's now kat bilik zainul~

i'll post his pict yang bagus-bagus later lah..

ini from my hp cam ;)


eh salah..ni abang Rocky..

ni baru adik Ronnie..

hehe..ok habes..

*jOm rehat sebelum study*